Mother War
I
was raped
For
the first time
When
I was a child
Ants
crawling
Over
my body
Pieces
of me
Gone
Ripped
No
one answered
My
cries
To lay waste
To something so innocent;
Irresistable
She was fresh
The first time I touched her
she made me rich
when I stole from her
I
didn’t know I was
A
girl
I
didn’t know I was supposed to cross my legs
When
I sat
Didn’t
know there were rules
I
didn’t know I was a girl
Didn’t
know
what
I was
Because
I
hadn’t been labeled yet
The first years were fun
But then became work
She became work
Suddenly every thing had
rights
Should be free
Had a right to breathe
They may have their rights
but I have mine, too
I
wasn’t young the second time
I
wasn’t as young as before
Those
pieces of me
that
were already gone -
Wounds
hidden among other things
His
touch, a breeze that would pass
She’s not as pretty now as
she once was
She’s becoming a woman
I
grew up
But
they grew up faster
I
screamed
My
face pressed into the earth
My
face is the earth
My
body taken from me
I
screamed
Did
you hear me?
There were still pieces of
her
Of value
But not many
She was used up
Her skin crumbling
Caving in
On herself –
Too many holes inside
She might be handsome
If you didn’t know her
before
There
were pieces of me
They
couldn’t touch
That
were left alone
-They
flourished-
Those
pieces unreal
Belonged
to someone else
Those
pieces beautiful
Not
like me
I
want someone inside of me
In
the darkest places of my being
To
see the treasures
I
store there
Maybe she blames me
But it’s her battle
She could destroy me
If she chose
It wouldn’t take much
I
teased them,
Showed
them things they couldn’t refuse
But
I hated them for it
No
That’s
not true
I
didn’t hate them
I fought over her
But wouldn’t fight for her
I suppose I am a woman now
My limbs matured
My veins polluted
She used to struggle
To spit fire
Shatter mountains
Her screams were feared by
some
I
don’t know how much time is left
I
don’t know how much of me
will
be left
One
scream left
