thriving on
animalistic desires only to find --
the
focus of my gaze then, where your sternum rises to meet the dry air and skin
permeates into bone do you fall into light, a certain calm and a certain
shyness my body is bathed in indecency and i want nothing more than to absorb
you, so wholly: find your scent between the whites of my eyes and the
translucence of eyelid and eyelash did you find artery and vein under your
nails when you felt me submerge myself into your being i wanted this to be a s
e a n c e of all sorts, to
find reveries of spirit and phantom as you plunge into me and feel fire at my
centre as i melt like glaciers in summertime solstice at your touch( keep you
here, keep you here always and
nowhere else )there are depressions in my skin, your hands digging deep into
dunes of breast and valleys of hip as petals part at your disposal do you
consume me, taste as you please: honey from a maenad's lips and the body of blood
of jesus christ or something and another so foreign and holy makes me shudder dirty
sewer queen and mold in the crannies of your teeth(i’ve kept you here for so
long have you forgotten what it is to b e
)i breathed you in and felt yesterday's sweat form rivulets in my palms;
broken bones and sprained fingers, my fingers find their way to that crevice of
clavicle and shoulder where my tears once gathered and fell to form oceans of
dismay( i crave to p e e l back your
flesh, taste the muscle and sinew and let it collapse into me )
my hips rise
and fall to the mechanical hush of old fingertips and old loves( need, crave,
desire ) all the things i cannot
have yet want so terribly i want to consume you whole b i t e your bones and take my lips and suck the marrow so that it
stays in my mouth always live in my tongue like a parasite, bite the back of
hand and it is the only thing that it reminds me that you are an illusory a p p a r i t i o n as cherries bleed
into my mouth( oh to lose myself in you, lose myself always and nothing more )
blackberry puree down my legs(sorry so sorry)
